*TRIGGER WARNING*

This blogpost contains content that some readers may find distressing or triggering. Unless you feel you are at a sufficient place in your recovery or do not struggle with an Eating Disorder-or any food related issues for that matter-I suggest you give this one a miss.

Personally, I can’t actually read back a lot of what I’ve written in relation to my mental health. I sometimes can but I have to be careful cause words can invite you in. If your not in a good place or even an okay place, the wrong words can invite you in and trap you.

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An eating disorder is a monster

that hijacks your mind, body, and soul.

It eats away at your brain,

making sure that every day there’s less of you left.

Taking away every fragment of you.

Replacing each discarded piece

with a piece of itself.

Each action, interaction

is dictated by the beast. 

Everything that makes you unique

sucked away into an endless vacuum. 

It takes your voice

and locks it away.

So no matter how loud you scream,

how long you beg it to stop,

no one will never hear you.

It ensures that any relationship,

apart from the one between you and it,

is cut. 

Or at the very least

kept at arm’s length.

It takes everything

until the only way to get rid of it,

is to get rid of you.